Bringing awareness for Meditation, Mental Health & PTSD
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Each video takes a lot of work. I try to bring the best quality quickly while working on my mental health but I have a lot to learn and improve. I just started YouTube in 2020 because I want to share what helped me and what nobody could tell me. Some people told me how my explanations helped them and could help more on YouTube. I’m very happy with this new experience. I don’t sell anything. I’m a regular guy, sometimes I’m wrong. I’m here to talk science. I try to share knowledge, help people and have fun.
Get some relief in 10 minutes with this breathwork.
I try to do it everyday.

You can also get relief with 10 minutes click track PSTEC
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You can contact me on my social media if you have questions.
I can quickly explain how to do focusing therapies with a friend and I can try to help.

Centers have limited access because of COVID-19. I advise to call the centers to have more information.

  1. Worldwide: Goenka 10 days Vipassana meditation
    3 months waiting list in the west. Short waiting list in Asia. Good retreat for beginners but don’t get stuck on this technique. Everything is free. You can make donations but there is no obligation. You can learn a lot at Ajahn Chah monasteries for free.
    All continents:
  2. Thailand: Wat Pah Nanachat
    Available anytime, you can stay as long as you want. The Ajahn Chah organization is well known and renowned.
    They have monasteries in Thailand, UK, Portugal, Brazil, California, Germany, Switzerland, Italy, etc. open to visitors to meditate for free. It’s possible to volunteer. You can find the list of all their monasteries here :
    Wikipedia Forest Traditon
  3. Myanmar : Pa Auk Monastery
    The Monastery used to be open to everyone for free but Myanmar is closed because of political and social unrest.
  4. North India: Deer Park Institute
    Someone told me it’s a good place to meditate. There are teachers from all over the world from different schools. They have accommodation for foreigners. it’s 1$ a day.
    The best way to start is to start. Don’t make it over complicated. I wish you the best. Usually people waste time and give up by trying meditation alone so try a free meditation center then try another one and keep learning. Find what is right for you. I think finding peace in the sensations of the breath and enjoying them is key. I think Goenka is good for beginners but it’s better to continue in Ajahn Chah Monasteries. It’s not really religious. I think I wasted time being stuck on Goenka meditation. Don’t close yourself up to only one custom or technique. Let go, Let come.
    here is a great documentary about Vipassana meditation:

Alternative Communities to work, live and meditate:
1. Auroville, Tamil Nadu, India (3000 people)
2. Arcosanti, Arizona, USA (80 people)
3. Tamera, Portugal (200 people)

You can find more addresses of communities on these websites. You can also find places to volunteer and travel. It can also be a good way to learn languages and take a year away from your routine cheaply. There are many ways to live happy.
Working holiday visa

A good way to travel and make friends is to go to hostels. There is a chain of hostels called . They offer a monthly package called CoLive with free yoga and free coworking space. check them out. It’s also possible to find hostels where you can volunteer, you can learn a lot volunteering in a hostel and learn languages.

Best Meditation guide books

The Mind Illuminated: A Complete Meditation Guide Integrating Buddhist Wisdom and Brain Science for Greater Mindfulness by John Yates (2017)

It’s the best guide book I know for beginners. It’s extremely well made. For people more advanced. Ajahn Brahm leading to Jhana meditation is better. Enjoy the sensations of your breath.
Free AudioBook on YouTube
Free on Audible (It’s free, if it’s your first time accepting an audiobook from a friend)
Free PDF

Ajahn Brahm – Mindfulness, Bliss and Beyond

Good book for people who already understand meditation and want to progress with Jhanas.
Bhikkhu Kumara questions the importance of Jhanas to progress and the right translation of Jhana from what the buddha meant. I think Bhikkhu Kumara might be right. Relax your body and stay open.
People can also read books and watch videos from Ajahn Sumedho. He is a helpful teacher.
Free on Audible (It’s free, if it’s your first time accepting an audiobook from a friend)
Free PDF

The Power of Focusing: A Practical Guide to Emotional Self-Healing by Ann Weiser Cornell (1996)

Very powerful therapy to do with friends or professionals to release painful emotions and trauma quickly. It unlocked many trauma/PTSD. I can see amazing progress for myself. It’s great to do it with a supportive friend.
The old version of the book can be downloaded here for free

In the Buddha’s Words: An Anthology of Discourses from the Pali Canon (The Teachings of the Buddha) by Bhikkhu Bodhi (2005)

Very good translation of the wisdom the Buddha taught. A Buddha is someone who learned the nature of reality without a teacher and reached nirvāṇa/nibbāna. Freedom from passion, aversion and ignorance.

Awake: It’s Your Turn by Angelo Dilullo (2021)

This book helped me to progress. It got important tips to progress with meditation and let go.
You can watch videos of the author Angelo Dilullo on Youtube.

All books can be acquired for free on Audible Amazon or might be available online for free streaming.
Amazon Audible offers a free book of your choice every time you stop your subscription or free-trial for 12 months.
People with schizophrenia or bipolar disorder have bad reactions to deep meditation and their connection to reality. Some doctors misdiagnose some people with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder because even doctors can make mistakes. Some people can beneit from meditation but it doesn’t work for all mental disorders. Finding a good psychiatrist and the right diagnosis is essential to find the right treatment. An educated psychiatrist should know if meditation and psychedelics can help or not. Psychedelics are very dangerous for people with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and other mental issues.
I find that what he explains about the teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi is pretty good:
The teachings of the Buddha go further so don’t get stuck on one practice and misleading gurus.

My favorite documentary series is Cosmos by Neil Degrasse Tyson. What he explains about life, science and the universe is really amazing and the special effects are beautiful. It’s a masterpiece.
Cosmos: A Spacetime Odyssey Trailer

Doctor Dissects the Wim Hof Method & Tibetan Tummo meditation

Psychedelic therapies are still under legal research in many countries like in USA. People interested should talk to qualified doctors and not random doctors who don’t know what they are talking about. Psychedelic therapies are legally prescribed in very few countries in 2020 but slowly become more available. These therapies are complex with serious risks and not advisable to everyone. Focusing therapy and psychedelic therapies can be used together to get much better results. This book has some info “Psychedelic Psychotherapy-R. Coleman” More information are available on

There are Ketamine clinics in USA, Canada and a clinic in UK showing great results for people with deep depression or PTSD and getting poor results with SSRI but Ketamine has some risks too. Ketamine clinics should do focusing therapy at the same time. If they don’t offer that and just let people have a nice trip alone, they miss an opportunity to have much better results to relieve depression and trauma much deeper and faster. It’s not professional to treat mental health with a ketamine infusion and a “see you next time”. Find what is right for you. It’s possible to find Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy (KAP). Ketamine can help some people with bipolar disorder but not always. Ketamine for OCD.Ketamine danger. A lot of people with trauma will be called Bipolar by some doctors. Many doctors put a lot of things under the label Bipolar disorder. Some people diagnosed with Bipolar disorder cannot find help with meditation but some can heal their trauma and heal from that diagnosed Bipolar disorder that is very different from other types of Bipolar disorder. Heavy Trauma and anxiety disorder can wear out the mind and cause a lot of mental issues.

Long term deep meditation in centers allows to work deeper in the mind, to heal and change habits with no risks to a normal brain. I find deep meditation to work deeper than psychedelics for my PTSD. I got amazing results with focusing therapy and ketamine. I got even better results with deschloroketamine taken in small doses with focusing therapy and meditation. Deschloroketamine is a more a challenging experience and less harmful to the bladder. It’s a bad strategy to take SSRI or psychedelics or doing therapy without practicing equanimity and the understanding that suffering comes from our daily cravings and aversions.
Vice documentary on Ketamine:
Dr Steve Levine Princeton, New Jersey

It’s possible to find the Ayahuasca Church of Santo Daime in many countries with knowledgeable people. They are legal under The Universal Declaration of Human Rights: freedom of religion (Art.18). They don’t always have a website and can be hard to find.

The is a religion similar to Santo Daime that is called União do Vegetal. They are both recognized and legalized in USA.

May all beings be at peace – သတ္တဝါ အားလုံး ငြိမ်းချမ်းပါစေ 🐒
The Universal Declaration of Human Rights
The Universal Declaration of Human Rights (UDHR) is a milestone document in the history of human rights. Drafted by representatives with different legal and cultural backgrounds from all regions of the world, the Declaration was proclaimed by the United Nations General Assembly in Paris on 10 December 1948 (General Assembly resolution 217 A) as a common standard of achievements for all peoples and all nations. It sets out, for the first time, fundamental human rights to be universally protected and it has been translated into over 500 languages.
Whereas recognition of the inherent dignity and of the equal and inalienable rights of all members of the human family is the foundation of freedom, justice and peace in the world,
Whereas disregard and contempt for human rights have resulted in barbarous acts which have outraged the conscience of mankind, and the advent of a world in which human beings shall enjoy freedom of speech and belief and freedom from fear and want has been proclaimed as the highest aspiration of the common people,
Whereas it is essential, if man is not to be compelled to have recourse, as a last resort, to rebellion against tyranny and oppression, that human rights should be protected by the rule of law,
Whereas it is essential to promote the development of friendly relations between nations,
Whereas the peoples of the United Nations have in the Charter reaffirmed their faith in fundamental human rights, in the dignity and worth of the human person and in the equal rights of men and women and have determined to promote social progress and better standards of life in larger freedom,
Whereas Member States have pledged themselves to achieve, in co-operation with the United Nations, the promotion of universal respect for and observance of human rights and fundamental freedoms,
Whereas a common understanding of these rights and freedoms is of the greatest importance for the full realization of this pledge,
Now, Therefore THE GENERAL ASSEMBLY proclaims THIS UNIVERSAL DECLARATION OF HUMAN RIGHTS as a common standard of achievement for all peoples and all nations, to the end that every individual and every organ of society, keeping this Declaration constantly in mind, shall strive by teaching and education to promote respect for these rights and freedoms and by progressive measures, national and international, to secure their universal and effective recognition and observance, both among the peoples of Member States themselves and among the peoples of territories under their jurisdiction. 
Article 1.
All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights. They are endowed with reason and conscience and should act towards one another in a spirit of brotherhood.
Article 2.
Everyone is entitled to all the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration, without distinction of any kind, such as race, colour, sex, language, religion, political or other opinion, national or social origin, property, birth or other status. Furthermore, no distinction shall be made on the basis of the political, jurisdictional or international status of the country or territory to which a person belongs, whether it be independent, trust, non-self-governing or under any other limitation of sovereignty.
Article 3.
Everyone has the right to life, liberty and security of person.
Article 4.
No one shall be held in slavery or servitude; slavery and the slave trade shall be prohibited in all their forms.
Article 5.
No one shall be subjected to torture or to cruel, inhuman or degrading treatment or punishment.
Article 6.
Everyone has the right to recognition everywhere as a person before the law.
Article 7.
All are equal before the law and are entitled without any discrimination to equal protection of the law. All are entitled to equal protection against any discrimination in violation of this Declaration and against any incitement to such discrimination.
Article 8.
Everyone has the right to an effective remedy by the competent national tribunals for acts violating the fundamental rights granted him by the constitution or by law.
Article 9.
No one shall be subjected to arbitrary arrest, detention or exile.
Article 10.
Everyone is entitled in full equality to a fair and public hearing by an independent and impartial tribunal, in the determination of his rights and obligations and of any criminal charge against him.
Article 11.
(1) Everyone charged with a penal offence has the right to be presumed innocent until proved guilty according to law in a public trial at which he has had all the guarantees necessary for his defence.
(2) No one shall be held guilty of any penal offence on account of any act or omission which did not constitute a penal offence, under national or international law, at the time when it was committed. Nor shall a heavier penalty be imposed than the one that was applicable at the time the penal offence was committed.
Article 12.
No one shall be subjected to arbitrary interference with his privacy, family, home or correspondence, nor to attacks upon his honour and reputation. Everyone has the right to the protection of the law against such interference or attacks.
Article 13.
(1) Everyone has the right to freedom of movement and residence within the borders of each state.
(2) Everyone has the right to leave any country, including his own, and to return to his country.
Article 14.
(1) Everyone has the right to seek and to enjoy in other countries asylum from persecution.
(2) This right may not be invoked in the case of prosecutions genuinely arising from non-political crimes or from acts contrary to the purposes and principles of the United Nations.
Article 15.
(1) Everyone has the right to a nationality.
(2) No one shall be arbitrarily deprived of his nationality nor denied the right to change his nationality.
Article 16.
(1) Men and women of full age, without any limitation due to race, nationality or religion, have the right to marry and to found a family. They are entitled to equal rights as to marriage, during marriage and at its dissolution.
(2) Marriage shall be entered into only with the free and full consent of the intending spouses.
(3) The family is the natural and fundamental group unit of society and is entitled to protection by society and the State.
Article 17.
(1) Everyone has the right to own property alone as well as in association with others.
(2) No one shall be arbitrarily deprived of his property.
Article 18.
Everyone has the right to freedom of thought, conscience and religion; this right includes freedom to change his religion or belief, and freedom, either alone or in community with others and in public or private, to manifest his religion or belief in teaching, practice, worship and observance.
Article 19.
Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers.
Article 20.
(1) Everyone has the right to freedom of peaceful assembly and association.
(2) No one may be compelled to belong to an association.
Article 21.
(1) Everyone has the right to take part in the government of his country, directly or through freely chosen representatives.
(2) Everyone has the right of equal access to public service in his country.
(3) The will of the people shall be the basis of the authority of government; this will shall be expressed in periodic and genuine elections which shall be by universal and equal suffrage and shall be held by secret vote or by equivalent free voting procedures.
Article 22.
Everyone, as a member of society, has the right to social security and is entitled to realization, through national effort and international co-operation and in accordance with the organization and resources of each State, of the economic, social and cultural rights indispensable for his dignity and the free development of his personality.
Article 23.
(1) Everyone has the right to work, to free choice of employment, to just and favourable conditions of work and to protection against unemployment.
(2) Everyone, without any discrimination, has the right to equal pay for equal work.
(3) Everyone who works has the right to just and favourable remuneration ensuring for himself and his family an existence worthy of human dignity, and supplemented, if necessary, by other means of social protection.
(4) Everyone has the right to form and to join trade unions for the protection of his interests.
Article 24.
Everyone has the right to rest and leisure, including reasonable limitation of working hours and periodic holidays with pay.
Article 25.
(1) Everyone has the right to a standard of living adequate for the health and well-being of himself and of his family, including food, clothing, housing and medical care and necessary social services, and the right to security in the event of unemployment, sickness, disability, widowhood, old age or other lack of livelihood in circumstances beyond his control.
(2) Motherhood and childhood are entitled to special care and assistance. All children, whether born in or out of wedlock, shall enjoy the same social protection.
Article 26.
(1) Everyone has the right to education. Education shall be free, at least in the elementary and fundamental stages. Elementary education shall be compulsory. Technical and professional education shall be made generally available and higher education shall be equally accessible to all on the basis of merit.
(2) Education shall be directed to the full development of the human personality and to the strengthening of respect for human rights and fundamental freedoms. It shall promote understanding, tolerance and friendship among all nations, racial or religious groups, and shall further the activities of the United Nations for the maintenance of peace.
(3) Parents have a prior right to choose the kind of education that shall be given to their children.
Article 27.
(1) Everyone has the right freely to participate in the cultural life of the community, to enjoy the arts and to share in scientific advancement and its benefits.
(2) Everyone has the right to the protection of the moral and material interests resulting from any scientific, literary or artistic production of which he is the author.
Article 28.
Everyone is entitled to a social and international order in which the rights and freedoms set forth in this Declaration can be fully realized.
Article 29.
(1) Everyone has duties to the community in which alone the free and full development of his personality is possible.
(2) In the exercise of his rights and freedoms, everyone shall be subject only to such limitations as are determined by law solely for the purpose of securing due recognition and respect for the rights and freedoms of others and of meeting the just requirements of morality, public order and the general welfare in a democratic society.
(3) These rights and freedoms may in no case be exercised contrary to the purposes and principles of the United Nations.
Article 30.
Nothing in this Declaration may be interpreted as implying for any State, group or person any right to engage in any activity or to perform any act aimed at the destruction of any of the rights and freedoms set forth herein.

The United Nations (UN) adopted The Universal Declaration of Human Rights.
On December 10, 1948, 48 countries came together at the United Nations in Paris to sign the Universal Declaration of Human Rights. The following is a complete list:
Afghanistan, Argentina, Australia, Belgium, Burma, Bolivia, Brazil, Chile, Canada, China, Colombia, Costa Rica, Cuba, Denmark, Dominican Republic, Ecuador, Egypt, El Salvador, Ethiopia, France, Greece, Guatemala, Haiti, Iceland, India, Iraq, Iran, Lebanon, Liberia, Luxembourg, Mexico, The Netherlands, New Zealand, Norway, Nicaragua, Pakistan, Panama, Paraguay, Peru, Philippines, Siam, Sweden, Syria, Turkey,United Kingdom, United States of America, Uruguay, and Venezuela.
The following eight member states abstained: Belorussia, Czechoslovakia, Poland, Saudi Arabia, Ukraine, South Africa, the USSR, and Yugoslavia.