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I talk about what helped me and what nobody could tell me.
I was depressed, traumatized and broken.
I was looking for some life-changing info and found many. Now I share them with the people searching.
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I’m a regular guy, sometimes I’m wrong. I’m here to talk science.
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I can quickly explain how to do focusing therapies and I can try to help.

  1. Worldwide: Goenka 10 days Vipassana meditation
    3 months waiting list in the west. Short waiting list in Asia. Good retreat for beginners but don’t get stuck on this technique. Everything is free. You can make donations but there is no obligation.
    All continents:
  2. Thailand: Wat Pah Nanachat (Ajahn Chah organization)
    Available anytime, you can stay as long as you want. The Ajahn Chah organization is well known and renowned.
    They have monasteries in Thailand, UK, Portugal, Brazil, California, Germany, Switzerland, Italy, etc. open to visitors to meditate for free. It’s possible to volunteer. After Goenka, it’s a good idea to go to Ajahn Chah monasteries.
    You can find the list of all their monasteries here :
    Wikipedia Forest Tradition
  3. Myanmar : Pa Auk Monastery
    The Monastery used to be open to everyone for free but Myanmar is closed because of political instability.
    This organization does not teach. Ajahn Chah is better for teachings.
  4. North India: Deer Park Institute
    Someone told me it’s a good place to meditate. There are teachers from all over the world from different schools. They have accommodation for foreigners. it’s 1$ a day.
    The best way to start is to start. Don’t make it over complicated. I wish you the best. Usually people waste time and give up by trying meditation alone so try a free meditation center then try another one and keep learning. Find what is right for you. I think finding peace in the sensations of the breath and enjoying them is key. I think Goenka is good for beginners but it’s better to continue in Ajahn Chah Monasteries. It’s not really religious. I think I wasted time being stuck on Goenka meditation. Don’t close yourself up to only one custom or technique. Let go, Let come.
    here is a great documentary about Vipassana meditation:

Alternative Communities to work, live and meditate:
1. Auroville, Tamil Nadu, India (3000 people)
2. Arcosanti, Arizona, USA (80 people)
3. Tamera, Portugal (200 people)

You can find more addresses of communities on these websites. You can also find places to volunteer and travel. It can also be a good way to learn languages and take a year away from your routine cheaply. There are many ways to live happy.
Working holiday visa

A good way to travel and make friends is to go to hostels. There is a chain of hostels called . They offer a monthly package called CoLive with free yoga and free coworking space. check them out. It’s also possible to find hostels where you can volunteer, you can learn a lot volunteering in a hostel and learn languages. Try to pick hostels with breakfast included to meet people in the morning.

Best Meditation guide books

The Mind Illuminated: A Complete Meditation Guide Integrating Buddhist Wisdom and Brain Science for Greater Mindfulness by John Yates (2017)

It’s the best guide book I know for beginners. It’s extremely well made. For people more advanced. Ajahn Brahm leading to Jhana meditation is better. Enjoy the sensations of your breath.
Free AudioBook on YouTube
Free on Audible (It’s free, if it’s your first time accepting an audiobook from a friend)
Free PDF

Ajahn Brahm – Mindfulness, Bliss and Beyond

Good book for people who already understand meditation and want to progress with Jhanas.
Bhikkhu Kumara questions the importance of Jhanas to progress and the right translation of Jhana from what the buddha meant. I think Bhikkhu Kumara might be right. Relax your body and stay open.
People can also read books and watch videos from Ajahn Sumedho. He is a helpful teacher.
Free on Audible (It’s free, if it’s your first time accepting an audiobook from a friend)
Free PDF

The Power of Focusing: A Practical Guide to Emotional Self-Healing by Ann Weiser Cornell (1996)

Very powerful therapy to do with friends or professionals to release painful emotions and trauma quickly. It unlocked many trauma/PTSD. I can see amazing progress for myself. It’s great to do it with a supportive friend.
The old version of the book can be downloaded here for free

In the Buddha’s Words: An Anthology of Discourses from the Pali Canon (The Teachings of the Buddha) by Bhikkhu Bodhi (2005)

Very good translation of the wisdom the Buddha taught. A Buddha is someone who learned the nature of reality without a teacher and reached nirvāṇa/nibbāna. Freedom from passion, aversion and ignorance.

Awake: It’s Your Turn by Angelo Dilullo (2021)

This book helped me to progress. It has important tips to progress with meditation and let go.
You can watch videos of the author Angelo Dilullo on Youtube.

All books can be acquired for free on Audible Amazon or might be available online for free streaming.
Amazon Audible offers a free book of your choice every time you stop your subscription or free-trial for 12 months.
People with schizophrenia or bipolar disorder have bad reactions to deep meditation and their connection to reality. Some doctors misdiagnose some people with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder because even doctors can make mistakes. Some people can beneit from meditation but it doesn’t work for all mental disorders. Finding a good psychiatrist and the right diagnosis is essential to find the right treatment. An educated psychiatrist should know if meditation and psychedelics can help or not. Psychedelics are very dangerous for people with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder and other mental issues.
I find that what he explains about the teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi is pretty good:
The teachings of the Buddha go further so don’t get stuck on one practice and misleading gurus.

My favorite documentary series is Cosmos by Neil Degrasse Tyson. What he explains about life, science and the universe is really amazing and the special effects are beautiful. It’s a masterpiece.
Cosmos: A Spacetime Odyssey Trailer

Doctor Dissects the Wim Hof Method & Tibetan Tummo meditation

Psychedelic therapies are still under legal research in many countries like in USA. People interested should talk to qualified doctors and not random doctors who don’t know what they are talking about. Psychedelic therapies are legally prescribed in very few countries in 2020 but slowly become more available. These therapies are complex with serious risks and not advisable to everyone. Focusing therapy and psychedelic therapies can be used together to get much better results. This book has some info “Psychedelic Psychotherapy-R. Coleman” More information are available on

I made a list of Ketamine Clinics in America & Europe. Ketamine therapies show good improvements with many people that have deep depression or PTSD and with people getting poor results with SSRI. Ketamine has some risks too. Ketamine clinics should do focusing therapy at the same time. If they don’t offer that and just let people have a nice trip alone, they miss an opportunity to have much better results to relieve depression and trauma much deeper and faster. It’s not professional to treat mental health with a ketamine infusion and a “see you next time”. Find what is right for you. It’s possible to find Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy (KAP). Ketamine can help some people with bipolar disorder but not always. Ketamine for OCD.Ketamine danger. A lot of people with trauma will be called Bipolar by some doctors. Many doctors put a lot of things under the label Bipolar disorder. Some people diagnosed with Bipolar disorder cannot find help with meditation but some can heal their trauma and heal from that diagnosed Bipolar disorder that is very different from other types of Bipolar disorder. Heavy Trauma and anxiety disorder can wear out the mind and cause a lot of mental issues.
Interview Dr Levine April 2021:

Long term deep meditation in centers allows to work deeper in the mind, to heal and change habits with no risks to a normal brain. I find deep meditation to work deeper than psychedelics for my PTSD. I got amazing results with focusing therapy and ketamine. I got even better results with deschloroketamine taken in small doses with focusing therapy and meditation. Deschloroketamine is a more a challenging experience and less harmful to the bladder. It’s a bad strategy to take SSRI or psychedelics or doing therapy without practicing equanimity and the understanding that suffering comes from our daily cravings and aversions.
Vice documentary on Ketamine:
Dr Steve Levine Princeton, New Jersey

It’s possible to find the Ayahuasca Church of Santo Daime in many countries with knowledgeable people. They are legal under The Universal Declaration of Human Rights: freedom of religion (Art.18). They don’t always have a website and can be hard to find.

The is a religion similar to Santo Daime that is called União do Vegetal. They are both recognized and legalized in USA.

May all beings be at peace – သတ္တဝါ အားလုံး ငြိမ်းချမ်းပါစေ 🐒

The Universal Declaration of Human Rights signed by 192 countries guarantees equal rights (Art.1), freedom of religion (Art. 18), the right to medical care (Art. 25).